more jaxson

so jaxson decided to be a little stinker today when i went in for his 1130 feeding, while changing his diaper, i walked to the sink to wet a towel and when i came back he had attempted to take out his feeding tube. than when i went back at 230, i changed his diaper and walked away to wash my hands and he got pissed cause i was taking to long. he is starting to become more vocal, cause normally he doesn't fuss or cry alot and now he is starting to. i think he is trying to say he wants to come home. i am wondering if they took out his feeding tube if he would be more prone to eat more than he does. cause he acts hungry when i come in, it's funny he looks like a little birdy. he moves his head around with his mouth open it's pretty cute. so i am keeping my fingers crossed for him possibly coming home this week. i can't believe on monday he will be two weeks old. oh i love that little boy so very much and can't wait to have him home. cause wih him being in the hospital i don't really feel like a mom, cause i can't really do anything...it's just really fraustrating..i don't know how my two sister in laws did it when they had babies in the nicu. soon though, i just keep hoping and praying and that's all i can do, but leave it up to jaxson and heavenly father.

just want to feel normal again

i am tired of the mood swings and the random crying sessions. i just want to feel normal again, i know i had a tough pregency and was stuck in the hospital for almost 5 wks and just had a baby and major surgery. and it's going to take awhile for my body to go back to normal, but i feel bad for dustin and him having to deal with me going thru the "baby blues" and the stress of having jaxson in the hospital. i know it will pass and that it will take some time, i just want and need him home. the only time i feel happy is when i get to spend an hour with jaxson at the hospital, and as soon as we leave the happiness goes away. but enough about that, so he doctor said jaxson will be in the nicu for another week. he needs to be able to take all his feedings from the bottle and not the feeding tube. the nurse said he does good in the morning and takes all from the bottle, but he gets tired thru out the day. today when we went he took 30 ccs from the bottle but had to have the rest thru the feeding tube cause he fell asleep and wouldn't wake up to finish the rest of the bottle. now we just have to wait for the little light bulb to turn on and for him to start sucking. i know he will get it in time just have to be patient.

jaxson update

okay so here is an update of the little guy, he is now in a crib and out of the isolete, he is maintaining his body temperature which is a good thing, still has the feeding tube in. but he is up to 45 cc's per feeding and he only spits up a little bit, which is good. he is a week old today. i can't believe i have been a mom for a week, crazy. jaxson was able to recieve a blessing today, which i am greatfull for. i am hoping that since he is making such great progress that he will be able to come home soon, but we shall see. keep him in your prayers for us.

update

okay so it's been like 5 wks since i posted anything..due to being hospital from the high blood pressure problems i had been having. went into the hospital on valentine's day...nice right? they admitted me, were going to release me a couple of times but blood pressure decided not to cooporate and i ended up showing signs of pre eclampsia. so the doctor decided to leave me in and wait and see when jaxson would arrive, she was trying to hold off as long as possible, to give him more time to grow. but on march 15, my body decided other wise, i started having blurry vision and getting really nauseous. so the doctor decided ready or not the baby was coming. so they wheeled me off to the or for a c section and on march 15, 2010 at 7:16 pm jaxson thomas lauricha entered the world, cord on the neck and all. he weighed 5 lbs 5 oz and was 17 1/4 inc long. he was perfect, and of course i cried when i heard him cry, all drugged up and stuff. i saw him briefly before they wisked him to the nicu, due to being 4 wks early. he is still in the nicu, he has jaudince so he is under a uv light, and part of his small intestines was still asleep so whenever he would eat, he would puke it back up. but that is now improving and he is up to 50 cc's, getting food from the bottle and feeding tube. so hopefully he will be able to come home soon.
things i have learn from having a c section.
1. morphine is not my friend (it made me sick)
2. magnesium sulfate..not my friend either.
3. having help is a blessing!! :)
4. i am alot stronger than i thought, the only pain meds i had was really strong mortion thru the iv, and whenever they would bring me extra strength tyenole.

more updates on a more regular bases to come now that i am home. :)