more jaxson

so jaxson decided to be a little stinker today when i went in for his 1130 feeding, while changing his diaper, i walked to the sink to wet a towel and when i came back he had attempted to take out his feeding tube. than when i went back at 230, i changed his diaper and walked away to wash my hands and he got pissed cause i was taking to long. he is starting to become more vocal, cause normally he doesn't fuss or cry alot and now he is starting to. i think he is trying to say he wants to come home. i am wondering if they took out his feeding tube if he would be more prone to eat more than he does. cause he acts hungry when i come in, it's funny he looks like a little birdy. he moves his head around with his mouth open it's pretty cute. so i am keeping my fingers crossed for him possibly coming home this week. i can't believe on monday he will be two weeks old. oh i love that little boy so very much and can't wait to have him home. cause wih him being in the hospital i don't really feel like a mom, cause i can't really do anything...it's just really fraustrating..i don't know how my two sister in laws did it when they had babies in the nicu. soon though, i just keep hoping and praying and that's all i can do, but leave it up to jaxson and heavenly father.

just want to feel normal again

i am tired of the mood swings and the random crying sessions. i just want to feel normal again, i know i had a tough pregency and was stuck in the hospital for almost 5 wks and just had a baby and major surgery. and it's going to take awhile for my body to go back to normal, but i feel bad for dustin and him having to deal with me going thru the "baby blues" and the stress of having jaxson in the hospital. i know it will pass and that it will take some time, i just want and need him home. the only time i feel happy is when i get to spend an hour with jaxson at the hospital, and as soon as we leave the happiness goes away. but enough about that, so he doctor said jaxson will be in the nicu for another week. he needs to be able to take all his feedings from the bottle and not the feeding tube. the nurse said he does good in the morning and takes all from the bottle, but he gets tired thru out the day. today when we went he took 30 ccs from the bottle but had to have the rest thru the feeding tube cause he fell asleep and wouldn't wake up to finish the rest of the bottle. now we just have to wait for the little light bulb to turn on and for him to start sucking. i know he will get it in time just have to be patient.

jaxson update

okay so here is an update of the little guy, he is now in a crib and out of the isolete, he is maintaining his body temperature which is a good thing, still has the feeding tube in. but he is up to 45 cc's per feeding and he only spits up a little bit, which is good. he is a week old today. i can't believe i have been a mom for a week, crazy. jaxson was able to recieve a blessing today, which i am greatfull for. i am hoping that since he is making such great progress that he will be able to come home soon, but we shall see. keep him in your prayers for us.

update

okay so it's been like 5 wks since i posted anything..due to being hospital from the high blood pressure problems i had been having. went into the hospital on valentine's day...nice right? they admitted me, were going to release me a couple of times but blood pressure decided not to cooporate and i ended up showing signs of pre eclampsia. so the doctor decided to leave me in and wait and see when jaxson would arrive, she was trying to hold off as long as possible, to give him more time to grow. but on march 15, my body decided other wise, i started having blurry vision and getting really nauseous. so the doctor decided ready or not the baby was coming. so they wheeled me off to the or for a c section and on march 15, 2010 at 7:16 pm jaxson thomas lauricha entered the world, cord on the neck and all. he weighed 5 lbs 5 oz and was 17 1/4 inc long. he was perfect, and of course i cried when i heard him cry, all drugged up and stuff. i saw him briefly before they wisked him to the nicu, due to being 4 wks early. he is still in the nicu, he has jaudince so he is under a uv light, and part of his small intestines was still asleep so whenever he would eat, he would puke it back up. but that is now improving and he is up to 50 cc's, getting food from the bottle and feeding tube. so hopefully he will be able to come home soon.
things i have learn from having a c section.
1. morphine is not my friend (it made me sick)
2. magnesium sulfate..not my friend either.
3. having help is a blessing!! :)
4. i am alot stronger than i thought, the only pain meds i had was really strong mortion thru the iv, and whenever they would bring me extra strength tyenole.

more updates on a more regular bases to come now that i am home. :)

can't sleep

so for the past couple days i haven't been able to fall asleep until almost 430 in the morning, which is really annoying, cause like most of you know i LOVE to sleep lol. so this morning since i couldn't sleep i decided to organize all of jaxson's clothes according to size, and put all the onesies and sleepers in piles from newborn, 0 to 3, 3 to 6, and 6 to 9 in piles and stuck them in the bassinent, cause i don't his dresser yet so in the bassinent it stays. and i also organized the clothes in his closet by size to. i guess you could say i am starting to nest. for his room i just have to put his initals up which dustin is going to do today, and i need to get a lamp and a laundry basket and some baskets to put the toys i have started collecting for him, i guess you could say i am a little ocd about making sure i have enough things for him. i still need to get a breast pump for when i go back to work. we found a babysitter for him, so jaxson won't be going to daycare which i am happy about. the lady who will be watching him is the spouse of one of dustin's coworkers. she is nice we have met a couple of times and she has a 2 yr old son, and they just had their second. the only thing is the babysitter is at the other base, which is about a 10 to 15 min driving depending on traffic. which is fine i am going to try and see if i can transfer over to the galley at the other base that way its easier for me to drop and pick jaxson up and if there is a problem i am right there instead of 15 mins away. i feel more comfortable with having jax at a babysitter instead of daycare. i never really liked the idea of putting my kids in daycare. i would rather be the one to watch him, but being in the navy doesn't allow me to do that sadly. but once i get out i hope to be able to and so does dustin. but only time will tell. i think the only things i have left on my list to get for jax is the mattress for the crib, changing pad, sheet for the changing pad, more sheets for the crib, possibly a new mobile, diapers, laundry detergent...mmm that's all i can think of, i just want to be as prepared as possible. i can't believe he will be in here in 8 wks. it's so exciting and scary to think i will have a baby in 8 wks, i have waited so long to be able to have a baby, that's all i have ever wanted. i remember when i was little telling my mom i want to be a mom and that is all. funny story one summer when my cousin tarryn was still living in arizona i went to insitute with her and i was having a conversation with a guy there and he asked me what i would like to do job wise, and i said a mom, and he got a suprised looked on his face. but i was just being honest cause that is the truth. i was talking to dustin last night before he fell alseep and i asked him you know what the best gift you have given me? and he said giving you a baby and i said of course, there is nothing that can top that. man this have become quiet a long post..ooops, but this is what i get for not being able to sleep. so i will close for now, there will be a jaxson update around the 22nd cause that's when i go to the doctor, and keeping my fingers cross the medicne is working and i don't make a third trip to the hospital. thanks for all the prayers and support we appreciate it!!

the decoration begins

so i am starting to decorate jaxson's room, got some cute monkey and poka dot decals that i can put on the wall, a monkey rug, and i got the letters j t l for jaxson thomas lauricha, to ut on the wall too. i painted them green, yellow and brown, cause his bedding has green yellow and brown poka dots. i am excited to start decorating. the bedding will be here soon, and should have the crib and dresser next month. i will post pics when i get done decorating. :)

update

so since i haven't posted for awhile..and i am not sure if anyone is reading my blog..but might as well post something in case there are people who do. so last week went in for a my regular doctor's appointment and my blood pressure was high, that was last tuesday so they sent me to the hopsital to be monitored and to have blood drawn and pee in a cup. test results were normal wasn't throwing protein and my urine, and was not showing any signs of pre e. so they sent me home and told me to come in and have my blood pressure checked. so i went to the doctor yestarday and my blood pressure was 140/100, still high, you would think with being on bed rest that it would go down. so they sent me back to the hospital for more monitoring and testing, test came back as the same from last week. so they let me go home and put me on blood pressure medication, to see that helps. i am hoping it does, cause if it doesn't it's either i get stuck in the hospital until jaxson arrives or jaxson makes a very early apperance, which right now would be 9 wks early, and he doesn't need to come this early. so i am keeping my fingers crossed that this will work. on a lighter note, dustin and i got married, so now when jaxson arrives we will be one big happy family. :)