home for the hoildays

so jax and i left sunny california last thursday and flew to az to spend christmas with my family..dustin couldn't come causehe wasn't able to take leave. i will be here until the 30th.. a much needed break from the galley. it's been a year since i have had 14 days off and it's rather nice. the next break i get will be when jax decides to arrive. so far i have seen cate, gavin, tim and andrea, watching cate and gavin until tomorrow. amy got home on friday it's good to see her and pete flys in today won't get to see him until tomorrow night when i get home from watching the kiddos. i have seen jer and jen and cute zoey. zoey is getting so big she is 12 lbs now and sweetest baby ever. she smiles at about everything and coos like it's going out of style. i can't wait till jax get's here. i know it will be hard with both me and dustin in the navy and the fact that in april 2011 i have to leave both my boys behind and do my sea duty. of course mom is worried cause i have to leave jax with dustin. but i know dustin will be fine, and i can't get out of my sea duty cause i signed a contract and i am obligated to finish my four year contract with the navy. the navy doesn't care if you have a family or not you signed a contract and you have to abide by it. but so far jax is growing away and kicking alot more, it still feels funny to feel him kick, it only get uncomfortable when he decides to move around than it's alot of pressure, i am not feeling sick anymore, finally glad that past, i am 24 wks only 16 more to go until jax makes his way into the world. it's an amazing thing being pregnant, i know when i first got pregnant i was suppose to be excited, but i was not excited i was scared out of my mind, dustin and i hadn't plan on having a baby so soon, we were going to wait until next year after the wedding, but life doesn't always go the way you plan, and this was a big curveball we both weren't expecting, we were both scared and we fought alot during the first couple of months, due to the stress of me bing pregnant and sadly i was very hormonal and i feel really bad about it, but now things are much better, we are both excited to meet the little guy. last night cate asked to feel jax kick, so i put her hand on my tummy and told her to wait, cause jax is now like a puppy he doesn't do it on command, he kicks when he wants to. so i told to be patient, luckily she didn't have to wait very long, cause jax decided to kick for his cousin and she got all excited. it was pretty cute to see. well more later when i get home from az...that's if anybody reads this. lol