ugggg

i feel like i am grasping at different strands in my life right now and i can't get a good hold on any. i am stressing majorly right now, dustin leaves for san diego november 21, so jaxson and i will be here in hueneme, by ourselves until we move down there in april when i transfer, so i have to worry about all the bills by myself, getting ready for our physical fitness assesment in 10 wks and making sure i am within weight standards come prt time. plus i have to start studying for e-5 exam, i take it in march and i want to make e-5 my first time up. so i feel like i have alot on my plate, plus i still have jaxson to take care of, and a house to keep up on, and dustin, and i feel like sometimes i don't get the support i need from him. i feel like i am always the one dealing with the baby and keeping the house clean, and when i ask him to help me with the house, he either puts it off until i do it myself, or gripes about it. i feel like i am his mom most of the time, its become very frustrating, and i don't know what to do. i feel like things are starting to fall apart and i don't know what to do to fix them or to keep them from falling apart, and it hurts.