trip to the hospital

so dustin and i ended up taking jaxson to the hospital last night..because he had been throwing up since friday night...and not spit up i mean throwing up..feed him and he would throw up everything he would eat. we gave him some pedialyte but he threw that up. so off to the hospital we went...for a six hour stay to have the doctor tell us he has a stomach bug..lovely. today he has done a little bit better still throwing up..but not as bad only cause he hasn't been eating very much..he wants to eat but it hasn't been very much..only cause he hasn't been feeling very good. i will be taking him to see his doctor tomorrow on base for the throwing up..diahrrea(sp) and he has a rash all over..poor guy..picture is of him in a hospital gown they have us to put him in...it was the smallest size they had and he was still drowning in it..he is so little but he put on a brave face, when we were waiting in the er he was cooing and smiling even though he wasn't feeling very good.

jaxson 2 month update prt 2

took jaxson to the doctor today he now weighs 7 lbs 12 oz and is 21.5 inches long. the doctor is still concern about his weight cause he is below the curve they use, but he has been spitting up alot. we did have him on a formula for spit up, but that wasn't working, so i have switch him to a soy formula and that seems to be helping. so hopefully that works and he starts to gain more weight. he is now up to 4 ozs for feedings. if he keeps it down than i usually try and keep giving him 4 oz but when he would spit up alot, i would take it down so he would keep some down. but now that he is on soy, i think i will try and give him 4 oz at every feeding. he got three shots today, two in one leg and one in the other, and they have him a vaccine oraly..i wish all his vaccines could be like that, would make it so much eaiser on him and me. so because of his shot..he hasn't been feeling very good today. luckily i don't work tomorrow, yeah i started back to work today and it was really hard leaving him at the sitter. but i am back to a 5 and 2 schedule, work every other weekend, so this week, i work today, but i would have had today and tomorrow off, and work wed, thur, and frid morning, and have saturday and sunday off, and than the week after that, work mon and tue, wed morning, and have the rest of wed and thur off and work that week, so it switches every week. it's okay, the only bad thing is that i have to be to work at 430 in the morning certain mornings and i don't get off untl 630 that night..exhausting and bad schedule for a new mom..but the navy doesn't really care...oh well got to do what i got to do, until i get out....thats all for now, got to go feed jaxson.

2 months old

Jaxson's 2 month update..we haven't gone to the doctor yet, cause he doesn't turn two months until friday, but it's close enough. so next monday i will find how much he weighs and how long he is. but so far, he is starting to smile more, finally got it on camera as you can tell. he is starting to coo more which is so very cute and sweet. he is eating up to 100 cc's every 3 hrs during the day, and at night he is still sleeping 4 to 5 hrs, sometimes 6 but that's once in a blue moon. he is more alert during the day and now respondes to mine and dustin's voice, and he is a very noisy one, likes to know whats going on around him. he loves his swing now, and likes having it in front of the tv, he likes watching it, more for the colors and the noise, not a big fan of his glider too much anymore. he still sleeps with me, but will sleep in his bassinent a bit more. umm that's it for now.

it was all worth it

this sweet little face made it all worth it, i never really understood what mother's love was when my mom or other people would talk about. until march 15, 2010 arrived and my sweet jaxson came and i finally got to feel a mother's love. even before he arrived while he was cooking away, i made sure i did everything i could to keep him safe and grow. of course i was faced with some challenges, but that's apart life isn't it. while i sat in the hospital for 4 wks on pins and needles never knowing every time the doctor came in to check on me, if that would be the day my sweet little boy would arrive. i am very greatfull that heavenly father helped me keep him inside as long as i possibly could without indangering us both. i know at 32 wks when i first entered the hospital we both weren't ready, and i had hoped i could have kept him inside for another month, but that was not possible. i am just glad my sweet little man came safely and with little complications, and that he is growing every day. he brightens my day every time i see his sweet face, and the best feeling is waking up in the morning and seeing him laying next to me. or getting to breath in his sweet scent when i hold him. and i don't mind smelling like him and spit up as my wonderful husband would say is the best smell in the world. getting spit up or peed on or changing smelly diapers is not that horribale, waking up in the middle of the night i am getting use to, very little sleep don't think i will ever get use to that. having a baby who sometimes doesn't want to sleep when i would like him to...mmmm more than likely never get use to that. but with all that comes the wonderfull things, the smiles i am starting to get from him and the little coo's and just being able to sit and hold him and stare at him for hours if i allowed myself to is so worth it. i will be sad when i have to go back to work next monday and leave him with the babysitter, but being able to come home and snuggle with him will be worth it. i just can't wait for the next one..that won't be for another couple of years (2) to be exact when i get myself out of the navy. but that will be the best day to be able to add to our family. mmmm i just love being a mom..i waited my whole life for it and it has finally happen and i couldn't have asked for anything better.

happy mother's day

me and my mom
mother-in laws
sister's and mom
jaxson and mommy
the one who made me a momma

my grandma

my mom and jaxson

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mother's in my life from my own mom, to my mother-in laws and my sisters who have had my nieces and nephews and my grandma. you all have inpacked my life in some way and i don't know where i would be without you. you all have shaped me and molded me in some way and i wouldn't be who i am without you guys. i love you more than anything in the world, and am so greatfull for all of you. and last but not least jaxson i love you so very much, you have made my life so much better, and i know you are still little and don't understand, and someday you will, but know that i have loved you from the very day i found out i was pregnant with you, to the moment i first felt you kick inside me, to the moment i heard you cry when you arrived 4 wks early. to being to wake up to your sweet face every morning. i love you so very much and will till the day i die. i am so greatfull to be your mom and that you choose me.

az trip

my niece zoey
my sisters an me with zoey and jaxson
jaxson meeting his great grandma
zoey(9 months) and jaxson (1 month)
my little man

jaxson and i made it back from arizona safe and sound.. we had a good trip getting to see everyone. jaxson did really well on the plane ride there and back..he slept both times. which i am really greatfull for cause i was worried how the plane ride would effect his ears, but it didn't seem to bother him one bit. and jax was able to recieve a blessing from dad and mom and dad's bishop. we are going to trip and make a trip back out there in august, but i know for sure we will be there for christmas. here are some pictures from the trip.